Our beautiful baby boy, why did you have to go so soon? You were my most beautiful creation. Your life was so short, yet had such an impact on our lives. You taught me the most pure form of love known to man, and that I will cherish forever. No spirit on this earth was as innocent or loving as yours. You are so unique. Please watch over mommy now baby. Let mommy know that you are here with me. Mommy needs to remember all the good times and all the love you so intensely filled my heart with, not the tragedy of you leaving this earth. Please keep your big bubba Lukie in your heart and watch over him, too. He misses you so bad. We love you our sweet angel. Remember that YOU will forever and always be my baby.
My son, Dillon Ray Farrer was murdered on June 21, 2001, one day shy of my birthday. I did not have him in my care at the time because I was very ill having complications in my third pregnancy. The third child I had I was giving up for adoption (by the way I gave him to the most wonderful deserving couple in the world). Because I was so ill and on bed rest and had no one to help me with my children, I decided to put the boys (Lucas my oldest, 3, and Dillon my youngest, 23 months) in a temporary, voluntary foster care arrangement, and then when I had the baby I would schedule a time to pick them up. I was scheduled to pick them up on June 27, 2001, when exactly one week beforehand, I got the call that he had stopped breathing.. I rushed to the hospital only to find out he was dead and to hear my 3 year old son tell me that Charlie (the foster father) had put a pillow over Dillon's face to make him stop crying, and murdered him. I found out the reason why my baby was crying was simply because he wanted his pacifier. They thought he was too old to have a pacifier (like 23 months old is really too old!). This has destroyed my life and my 3 year old's life. My son was the best thing that ever came into my life. I learned how to give love and be loved, and learned true, and I mean TRUE love through this wonderful spirit.